There are many who have had an encounter with the creator, but I’ve never heard of any like mine. Since no one else tackles the topics I do, I thought that my witness might help others who continue to struggle. How do we know the will of God? How do we build our faith? How do we stop sinning? What do we have to do to get our prayers answered? What are the rules? Never mind that. Anything one does to support one’s spiritual growth can only end in sin and self-defeat, like a snake eating its own tail. God is smart enough to solve any problem resulting from our failures, so we don’t have to worry about following rules of any kind. I had to learn this the hard way. Only now do I understand that one has to lose his life to find it and that it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives through me. Like a computer program gone bad, we must have ourselves “uninstalled.” This is my story.
The text of this book originated as a journal I began keeping in 2003 to sort my thoughts and keep me relatively sane. I was having depression, anxiety, questions of purpose, and an inability to apply the Christian dogma I had been taught to the real world. By 2013, I had the book basically done, but by then I was swept up in new (smaller) problems that I thought would make a better story once they were resolved too. They never were. I was also focused on trying to finish writing my other books. Thus it happened that I didn't publish No Longer I Who Live until 2023. I hope it helps others going through similar struggles.
The text of this book originated as a journal I began keeping in 2003 to sort my thoughts and keep me relatively sane. I was having depression, anxiety, questions of purpose, and an inability to apply the Christian dogma I had been taught to the real world. By 2013, I had the book basically done, but by then I was swept up in new (smaller) problems that I thought would make a better story once they were resolved too. They never were. I was also focused on trying to finish writing my other books. Thus it happened that I didn't publish No Longer I Who Live until 2023. I hope it helps others going through similar struggles.